I don't want to be...

Does the love that people have for one another on The Biggest Loser actually exist? How does it feel to have a spouse that supports you so much? How does it feel to have someone stick by you when you are going through something as scary as obesity? I wouldn't know. I tried to know, but she left me. The progress didn't matter to her. The overall failure did. It HAS to matter to me or I won't get back on the horse. How do I make it matter?